Anecdotes

It's been 5 years, 2 months and 13 days. I don't remember his face now, but I remember every word he said to me that night. He kept repeating the same thing over and over again. I didn't do anything. I am helpless, need medical help, psychological help, I should say. Someone who can help me forget that dreadful night, that somehow I'm able to live with this, live with the trauma of that night, live with it replaying in my mind, in my sleep over and over again, and everyday, I just wish it could just tone down a little maybe. I hadn't been able to talk to him since the past two weeks. The only thing keeping me so busy was my new job and my will to excel in at least this one. I was working as a software engineer in Amazon and I was posted in Bangalore with a very neat salary. All I wanted to do was get to the top at what I was doing. I had to work so hard for it. I had put away anything that could be a distraction. He knew that I had been through a breakup, and had...

I could hear laughing and giggling and happiness all around me. It was amazing, I was having the time of my life ! The kids were enjoying the After School Club ! I was enjoying it because they were all handling it amazingly. So, the job I got had taken me to Sachse High School, Miles Road, Texas. I was all nervous about what we were going to be taking in the first instructor class. We had planned what we were going to be doing, made a rough agenda of what we could teach the students today. I, specifically, had even attempted a detailed agenda explaining every little thing that I was going to be discussing in the lecture. I had to be fully prepared to anything that was about to come my way. I went to the university from where the team had decided to start the journey for the school. It took about 45 minutes to reach the university from where I live. Where I live is about 10 minutes of walk from the bus stop. It is officially the end of summer in Texas today, but the Sun is happy be...

What more do you want What more do you need Everything you wanted Is now at your feet Your humble self And your giving nature Brought you more than you Even deserve But something still remains Something is still not complete In that little world of yours Something is still asleep Awaken at your feet are wonders of the world Licking your toes are the ones you don't need anymore Holding your hand is someone you would always need And living your life is the best thing that could be But still that thing haunts you Day and night it feeds on your flesh You need it more than you could imagine But still disgrace it when it is with you                       So take my advice Run for your life Coz this is the moment You could never despise This moment brings you that something This moment takes you that way Where life is not just living But happiness indeed

My roommates told me I was smiling in my sleep Last night, when I dreamed about you by my side Sitting and laughing, teasing me on sight Because you knew that you were the only one Who could give me and take my life My roommates told me I was smiling in my sleep And I could not say a thing but smile Because they could never knew I was watching you in the moonlight With the brightest smile, which told me Never take me out of your deep blue light My roommates told me I was smiling in my sleep Because I was totally in the light Of your shadow and your perfect self Which could never let me even move When your trust and faith had me so inbound And you were the only one I could love without any freight My roommates told me I was smiling in my sleep But they could never know the darkness that followed When you had the only thing this world could never be able to cure And I could not help you even get over The pain and the suffering that ruined you And your perfect se...

"I think I might have done it now...", I thought. I was trying to train a neural network. I have been trying to do that since the past month, but in some way, I am always hindered by a different plan to do something better. This was my first model that I developed. Wrote about a hundred lines of code and run it on the terminal of my operating system. Within seconds hundreds of lines were displayed and my computer screen screamed that it was out of memory. Sadly, the good things in life always come with a cost. "I would now have to run this on a system with more memory (RAM) !", I said to myself mimicing a voice that was heavier than my own. Little did I know, that whatever I was trying to do was going to tear me apart in the coming few weeks. The screen popped a few messages and my network started training. I sat back on my chair and relaxed thinking about what my life would have been had I not taken up this project. I wouldn't have been running to college ...