Anecdotes

 "Why do I have to put up a face ?", I thought to myself. Sitting in that office chair was the worst nightmare I was going through. And I did not want anyone to know what I was going through. Sometimes there is no way to hide it. And sometimes you just have to keep going no matter what. I felt a very strong pain in my chest. It's almost like Mjolnir, Thor's hammer, was kept on my chest, and obviously, I was not worthy! I also felt like I would cry if I talked to anyone at all. So, as soon as I saw a wave of coworkers walk across my desk, I put on my headphones with music on high volume and pretended to be in a meeting so I don't have to talk to anyone. Last night had been miserable. I was with her, and a couple of her friends. She kept looking at me every once in a while, and I was just focused on her. She was sitting with one of her favorite friends, and all others were talking. This was my first time with the group, so I was silent. Every once in a while she wou...

"Hi Shikha, It has been a while since we talked, or since you picked up my calls or responded to my texts.  You know, I remember our walk down the lane to your house. I remember thinking that I will try to do anything I can to keep her in my life. The last three dates with her have been so close to perfect, I don't even want to get to perfect! I like spending time with her, like to look at her play with her hair. That tells me she likes me too. Her here refers to you, BTW. I liked it so much when we held hands for the first time. I could feel goosebumps! I remember how we walked together silently for a while, holding each other together. I did not have to say anything to you. You did not have to say anything to me. At the same time, both of us knew what was going on. At a certain point of time, I thought you could have felt my heartbeat as well. Not sure, but I felt my heart beat so loudly when you kept your hand on my chest.  Then something unspeakable happened with you! I di...

His eyes open. His neck is hurting. His back is also hurting. It doesn't seem like he would be able to get out of bed today. He stretches a bit, trying to wake up. As he starts moving, he feels movement on the other side of the bed. He is super scared. He finds Ishani on the other side of the bed, sleeping sound. WHAT? How did he get here ? What happened last night ? Why does he not have his clothes on ? Did he just have a sleepover with Ishani ? He couldn't make sense of anything and was too scared to wake her up and talk to her at all. He gets off the bed, tries to find his clothes. He has never been in this apartment. He has to get out quickly! And he does. He quickly puts on his pants, and shirt. He checks his pockets quickly, where he finds his phone and wallet, already in place. Then he quietly tiptoes out of the apartment, wears his shoes on the staircase outside of the apartment, leading to the parking lot. Where is he now ? Why is my head hurting ? What happened last n...

"Could I please walk you home this time ?", he asked. She chuckles, and says, "Okay! Just this once, I will allow it." He chuckled. We know that chuckle means he's going to ask again, and her chuckle means that she likes him asking for it every time. Not sure if he understands that yet. They start walking. He's looking for topics for conversation, this is his third date with her, and he likes talking to her. When you like someone, you're not able to gauge their response to your liking accurately. At the same time, he is more logical than emotional, and he simply does not understand emotions as well. He is just hoping that she will communicate that she likes him, because he dreads bringing up any topic that makes him talk about his emotions. "By the way, this is the first time I'm going out with someone I matched on Tinder!", he said, finally getting something to start a conversation with, "or technically, the third." She looks at ...

He started working again. Threw his phone on the bed on the other side of the room, cursing himself for looking at it again. "I have to stop", he thought to himself. "It has been a month, and I cannot just keep thinking about her. I need to move on!", he murmured. It is tough, if you think about it. The matters of the heart, are difficult to understand. How do you move on ? Did it ever occur to you that moving on is so difficult. And still, everyone in this world has to go through it. Some people need to move on from a relationship which lasted a whole six years, whereas others move on from relationships lasting only two weeks. Obviously the time you spent does not change the quality of the relationship. Even a two-week relationship sometimes can overpower a six year relationship in quality. "If I keep the phone away, maybe it will work. I just have to resist looking at the phone. Even if she messages, I won't look now!", he pledged to himself. He sat ...

"I don't think we are each other's type, right ?" "Yes, and we don't even think the same way" "Yes, and you live in the US" "Yes, you do like America though, right ?" "Yes, I do like America, I think the lifestyle there is very good!" "Yes, you do... although, you are trying to make a career here since a long time, and I wouldn't want you to give it up."  "Yes, and long distance relationships usually ends up in a harsh breakup!" "Right, and I don't want to hurt you in any way!" "Yes, I do know that, and neither do I want to hurt you in any way" "Yeah, and even if it works, I do think meeting once every year is not a feasible and/or reliable path to a successful relationship" [chuckles] "Oh yeah, totally agree. And then, we have been friends for almost 6 years" "Yes, I don't think I'm ready to give that up with you" "Specially if it tur...