The Process Scheduling Program

I was on the driving seat that day. We had been stuck in a traffic jam since the last half an hour. I had been irritated by the laziness that i had shown in the lab today. I had failed to do one of the easiest things. A process scheduling program was among the easiest ones in Operating System ! No doubt I was a loser. My mind was totally offset. Why ? Why not just mine ? Almost everybody had done it, why could I not do it ? I mean, is this the reason why I took up computer engineering as my subject. I had been very confused all the time. I could not drive, my God ! Why was I even here ? I had to become a business manager. God ! and why do such thoughts come to my mind ? This was too much. One of my friends offered me some water in the bottle cap, okay, he wanted me to drown in that water ! Is it not amazing what our mind makes up when we are sad. People commit suicide when they are sad. They do not consider the possibility that there could be others who may be loving them more than they are worth. I would never commit suicide. I had never been so sad about myself in my life. I started thinking about things that I had not been able to do correctly. I had never done anything with my full potential. What was I worth ? I used to do what I loved to do, what I wanted to do, never thinking about what others might feel about it. I was never a good student in my school, nor could I do any better in college. Oh my, I was going in a state of depression ! Suddenly I heard a bang and got stuck in my belt while falling forward. Oh NO! I had hit my car again ! This was actually happening to me. Last time I hit my car I had to pay Rs 400 for it. This time it would be more, and a nice scolding from my father again. I will not be able to meet my girlfriend on time, who would be waiting for me outside her society in about half an hour and all this because of a simple Process Scheduling Program !

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