Different ? Or the Same ?

I think I get it
why I don't have friends my age
seems like I am very different
and still the same
from what everyone my age does
especially not a challenge
as stupid as staying mute
for 30 days straight,
which I don't know why I started
and have no idea
what I would gain from
and still I try to fit in
to every friend circle I see
that doesn't need me

Maybe it was
how I was brought up
how my parents tried
to push me, to make more friends
but I had no courage
to ask someone, anyone
to be a better friend,
to be that special person
who would listen to me
when I'm sad and when I'm happy
and share his or her feelings
all day everyday with me.

Or maybe it is
because of the fact that
I can't hangout with
folks my age
because I don't like the things they do anymore,
like staying up all night
to complete their Game of Thrones.
I am like an old person
who has a fixed time of sleep
and waking up
and lives everyday like a planned fairy tale
where he expects to know exactly
what the future holds for him.

Or maybe it is
just because of my
criteria of a friend,
that only someone who would
listen to me
would be allowed to hold my hand
in times when he or she needs me
and he is only worth my time
if at all
he agrees to what I say.

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