Do You Really Love ?

The polite group discussion was now turning into a melee. All the other people of the group were forcing their views on others. I looked around to see those sitting silent, then saw her gaping intently to something or someone. She had those glorious green eyes which seemed to be in deep thought. I thought of going upto her and asking her what she was thinking, but i waved it off. She seemed melancholy and lonely even among thirty people in the same room. Suddenly, she got up and left the room. I guess I was the only one who noticed her go.

Even in the lectures i used to stare at her all the time. My mind used to be fixed on her. She knew i loved her and whenever asked I would behave mealy mouthed, never wanting to tell her what i really felt for her.

I went after her. She seemed so depressed that i had to ask her the reason this time. She did not say a thing, but then I would never back-off from such a situation. I asked her if she wanted to divest something, and she replied in negation, so i just stood there beside her looking at the newly painted walls of my college.

She said she was in a deep fit. She loved someone so deeply that she had proposed him a few days ago. She said she was not able to cope with reality now, yes, you guessed it right, she had been rejected ! I stood there paralysed. I had never gone through such a shock in my life. She loved someone and proposed him. The latter almost killed me, but i had to control myself as well as her. She had come to the GD so as to forget about the incident but the fight scene there had evoked much more pain.

She wanted to go home. I took her in my car. She hugged me hard and wiped her tears before leaving the car. I came back to school pondering over what had just happened. How do I mitigate her ? How to mollify her pain ? After all, I loved her !

Just then I bumped into the guy she loved so deeply. I thought I could inquire about why he did all that to her so started talking to this guy. After a while's talk he told that he had a girlfriend and things were quite awkward between them.

A few days later, I heard from someone that the guy had commited suicide. This news left me marred.

Some things just happen, no matter how better you think you know the situation is. The only thought in my mind now was, will she be able to remain happy again ?

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